YES: Beautiful hair and flawless skin- an evergreen desire. A body sexy enough to impress a soldier from military camps. Of course, I called such things simple every day wants. Such things were chit chat topics with a girl I met along the path at the street way coffee shop. I realized over time, however, girls will come and go and such societal topics will have influenced both our minds to leave us thinking alone.. “Alone”.
OKAY: I guess I will try to explain what happened next because it is worth it-
Company took me away. “I am gluing myself to you and you cannot go away”. I fought habits and tried to use a quality of “toleration”. I searched for the patience skill I knew I had somewhere inside of me, but nowhere was it found. I kept walking out the door every time I had a chance but understood something that evening alongside the pool. ..
The young fellow walked by my side peering over and I felt a stitch pop- he wasn’t MY company. His attempts to stick would fail because he wasn’t MY glue. Everyone clearly longed to find such permanent company and here I was, running away because of my fears?
THUS: I had to pour out my guts and it was ugly. I was on the edge and didn’t know if such gold would be in my hands after this. What if I had no one to stick to after this mental operation? What if I was rejected? Needles causing pain seem like no big deal in life but I was phobic towards a poke of change. What if this company caused my personality to become nurturing, loving, and kind?
GRANTED: I heard of this concept before- gluing to each other and taking off into the air. No one knows of the cloudy stories. Everyone speaks of heaven and hell but there is no Love for the clouds? Changes happened as I accepted him and we took off into the air. I became curious about my sensitivity, flaws, strengths, and holistic being. He pointed to castles and palaces from the top and I forgot I was afraid of such heights in the past. He called over another duo in the clouds beside us and I slightly removed my introvert label. He tickled me until I ate the cotton candy sky pieces, filled with regular sugar unlike Splenda I used to intake. Take off into the clouds with someone and changes w i l l happen- ask me about it.