Swimming in Water

As I left the building and ran towards my car, I felt liquid trickling down my thigh. I felt confused as to why I would have my menstrual cycle at such an unexpected time. Lately, there had been so much turbulence regarding hormones, cycles, and timely rotations, so I wondered what was happening this time. I questioned far enough to ask myself if I accidently peed in my pants. Of course, I knew I was not this silly. Thankfully, I was also aware of my biological and emotional instability at the time- this could be anything.

Anything: I almost did not want to know what was happening so I moved on. Modern day life demanded continuity and I do not remember the last time I had no plans for my future. I wrapped up my projects, with intended ignorance towards the drizzling liquid, and patted myself on the back. Congratulations, you made it through your day.

Sleep was undisturbed and lengthy, much past my alarm clock. I was glad to have you by my side; I was slowly becoming more accepting of your touch. I slipped out of bed, confident about another day, and felt the trickling again. Unable to clothe myself without investigating the white liquid excreting from my body, I grabbed a tissue and pressed it against my private areas. Soaking up the entire tissue, the liquid became a real thing. No more was this fluid imaginative, an illusion, or hallucination. This was really happening to me and I could not control it.