What the fuck is going on around here?
I know every night is not, but it is black
Air out my lungs looks like smoke but it is not
Victory does call for celebration but I
Desire a bed, some wine, deep thoughts
Or a night out but how will I not lose it?
How will I not lose control right now?
This time is sensitive, I feel sensitive
Looking behind my shoulder as I walk
As if someone is out here to hurt me
This mentality is making me feisty
I will act out, some more, stop me
Stop me from becoming “this way”
Change my vision up, change my music up
I am finding peace in negative lyrics
“I will still wake up every morning as
I have many obligations in this world &
I am not irresponsible” – He said
He is a great guy, I will listen to him
I will find a balance and conform
Somewhere between my twisted ways
And ways you label as righteous
I will become a better person
Asking for time will get me less of it
I remember the last time I begged for this
I do not have forever to look at myself
I will step into your salon
And expect you to already know
Of the character I am practicing to be
I do not have time anymore
My time is now
Move