I have meant to jot this down a while ago. When I began to realize the daily changes taking place within any pretense I was required to display and all behavior arising from my sincere, emotional core. What was happening to me; why was I changing? For some reason, I kept thinking of therapeutic facilitators that described to me ways of being both, good and bad.
This framework, provided by someone else, was blocking any clarity from arising in my mind.. or was it promoting chances for clarity? As he would pull me to the side, this old fellow, to talk, he hoped I would stay, he hoped I listened to him. Every time he was trying to put his thoughts together, hoping this would result in a successful conversation. Maybe, I would develop a liking for him and next time, ask him to dance before he stood up to lead the way first.
However, I was losing the patience to wait for his inspiring story to arise amongst his trail of thoughts. Why? This had never been my ideal state of mind; this is not how I chose or choose to describe myself presently. Patience is a quality I believe I should have mastered by now.
Why was I promising people they would be okay despite not knowing which way their life was heading tomorrow? False promises- I rejected that treasure when I discovered that everything glistening is not gold in this delusional world.
“Don’t work too hard, little girl, because you have been working way too hard in here. Take a break.” He patted me on the back as he barely walked out the door with an equal balance on both of his overused legs. “Do not shield from beauty around you; do not become lost in this world of negative distraction. Light your heart every time it is turning cold and keep it boiling in the stew of emotions.”
Did you mean to say this, old friend? Do you want to see my eager eyes peering in your direction for inspiration, again? Today, I have been defining myself to hold a kind heart but I seem to have misplaced the mindset of “unconditional”.
Non judgmental, Unconditional, Holistic, Forgiving, Thankful, Self Accepting & Self Companionship..