Having you here was fearful- something about you made me want to laugh and yet, sit down and shut up. Maybe, closing my mouth and looking away would save the tears, maybe I would not cry this way. Something about you made me want to run away from the mirrors and no longer could I look at my reflection.
Something about you wanted to be with me, with me. I hope the disbelief did not show in my eyes when I helplessly met yours. Hopefully, you were unable to see my shaking foundation I finally stabilized, teaching myself I was not ready for you. I was still not ready to stay with someone- I was meant to fly and communicate my thankfulness this way to my Lord.